I have alot of thoughts on where I am now. It's been 3 long years since my ex-wife and I split. I didn't want to move on, I just wanted the pain and chaos to stop. In some ways I've reverted back to my twenties, refusing to talk to anyone or make any connections and being absorbed in my passion project. Back then it was martial arts, now it's music. I have always had a deep spiritual connection to the divine. My faith is based in the Catholic church and I am in love with the ways of Witchcraft and Native American shamanism. I have since childhood been fascinated by all the world's mythologies, especially Celtic and Norse. And of course, my beloved dragons. 

Lately, I have fallen away from all these things. Haven't seen much of my family either. This is all a sign of my depression which I fell into over the last 3 years. I am on medicine for it and it helps. But I do recognize a need for a rebirth as with Spring, Lent, and rebranding my music. I have forced myself to get out into public spaces and be moderately social. I haven't played much music or done many open mics. I wasn't happy with my last few performances due to lack of practice. It didn't help that of the dozens of emails I sent inquiring about gigs, I was only able to book one. I still do my monthly show at St Anne's. I enjoy it so much. No mic, all acoustic. I can walk around and interact with the residents. I love that show. 

So here we are in spring. Easter fast approaches and I will get together with my family. The pre Easter time is Lent, it's about renewing faith and I am feeling called. I am spending a little time every day doing yard work and enjoying my dogs. I am enthusiastic about reconnecting with the Earth and nature. I am feeling an intense desire to play my music. I can't wait til the weather is good enough for me to sit on the deck and play. I've been wanting to rebrand my music show to more of a medieval appearance to reflect my fantasy based themes. I can't see losing the cowboy folk singer thing I've got going on now altogether. I think there's a place for both at this point. I haven't been writing a lot of songs over the last year. It is time to kick that back up. Ideas are flooding my head and melodies are dancing around and teasing me like pixies. 

So much more to say but alas, not enough time. Thank you to my Dragon Clan for all your support. To my mom, my brother, Steve, to my old and dear friend Judy, and to all who watch and like my You Tube videos, and like my Instagram posts. Special thanks to all my family, friends, coworkers, fellow musicians, and all those I've met in the music community who have listened to my album “Blind Dragon Sings.”

Loe and Peace